on a happier note: bought this awesome ring today
yes, the huge one :D makes me happy...what is formerly forbidden often does. cheers.
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1/21/2011
silent all these years
part of me feels like I should take down that last post but I'm going to leave it. tired of keeping everyone's secrets after all this time. it wasn't my fault, I did nothing wrong...why should I have to keep telling these lies?
on a happier note: bought this awesome ring today
on a happier note: bought this awesome ring today
1/19/2011
hit me again, see if i can still feel it
***ANGST WARNING***
just found a letter my mom wrote before she died and she basically said that everything wrong in the family was my brother's and my faults but that he was working on his problems and I wasn't and that she was afraid to say anything about any of it cause she was afraid of me. yeah, afraid...cause i said i wasn't happy at home and looked forward to getting out and somehow that equates to me hating her and not loving her anymore. then at the end she just sort of washed her hands of the whole thing and said either i'd love her or not and there was nothing she could do about any of it. i wish i knew when she wrote it, wish i knew how far back she blamed me and gave up on me.
i feel like i should feel relieved that she gave up on me and so i don't have to worry about living up to what she wanted or making her proud, cause obviously i failed a long time ago. but i don't.
i gave up everything for her, did everything she ever needed me to do, and she still thought i didn't love her.
if i could get in the car and drive forever and never look back, leave all this shit in the rearview mirror and forget, i would. f**k responsibilities. but i'm not like that so i'll just sit here and wait for the next blow to fall.
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ps - at least Fuzzypaws loves me :)
just found a letter my mom wrote before she died and she basically said that everything wrong in the family was my brother's and my faults but that he was working on his problems and I wasn't and that she was afraid to say anything about any of it cause she was afraid of me. yeah, afraid...cause i said i wasn't happy at home and looked forward to getting out and somehow that equates to me hating her and not loving her anymore. then at the end she just sort of washed her hands of the whole thing and said either i'd love her or not and there was nothing she could do about any of it. i wish i knew when she wrote it, wish i knew how far back she blamed me and gave up on me.
i feel like i should feel relieved that she gave up on me and so i don't have to worry about living up to what she wanted or making her proud, cause obviously i failed a long time ago. but i don't.
i gave up everything for her, did everything she ever needed me to do, and she still thought i didn't love her.
if i could get in the car and drive forever and never look back, leave all this shit in the rearview mirror and forget, i would. f**k responsibilities. but i'm not like that so i'll just sit here and wait for the next blow to fall.
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ps - at least Fuzzypaws loves me :)
1/18/2011
Blizzards and Buddy Days
Current music: string quartet covers
Object of the day: Google translate
Good deed of the day: giving away my quarters to a poor friend lusting after an in style mag ;)
Quote of theday week: "Hey, Ass-Butt!"
I spent most of this week snowed in under 5+ inches of ice and snow. This is the second winter storm since Christmas...hello, this is Georgia, weather, get back with the program! Loki still loves snow and playing in it, but sledding? Not so much. Dragging me off the sled? Yup. ;) I took some pictures but - alas - too lazy to put them on the computer yet. Soon.
And now, a special YAAAY for bff buddy days! Of course I want to wander around in the rain and help you look for a job, Kim. ;D Even better if after we get to have writer brainstorms. Fun days.
Object of the day: Google translate
Good deed of the day: giving away my quarters to a poor friend lusting after an in style mag ;)
Quote of the
I spent most of this week snowed in under 5+ inches of ice and snow. This is the second winter storm since Christmas...hello, this is Georgia, weather, get back with the program! Loki still loves snow and playing in it, but sledding? Not so much. Dragging me off the sled? Yup. ;) I took some pictures but - alas - too lazy to put them on the computer yet. Soon.
And now, a special YAAAY for bff buddy days! Of course I want to wander around in the rain and help you look for a job, Kim. ;D Even better if after we get to have writer brainstorms. Fun days.
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1/16/2011
Tina likes Hey Ass-Butt and 3 other pages
That's what my recent activity feed on facebook says right now, lol. Here's why:
(It has weird subtitles, just ignore)
Gotta love Supernatural! This may be my new favorite insult, haha. I really want to say this to somebody...or maybe the spanish version "Buco di culo!" :D
And I even made a graphic for it:
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(It has weird subtitles, just ignore)
Gotta love Supernatural! This may be my new favorite insult, haha. I really want to say this to somebody...or maybe the spanish version "Buco di culo!" :D
And I even made a graphic for it:
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Random graphics
random graphics of some pictures I've taken (click to make them full size):
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| lyrics are from "Call Me" by Shinedown |
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1/15/2011
1/13/2011
Another bit of useless humor
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| Via Google Images. |
As a former martial arts student, I can vouch for the validity of this. ;)
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